“You are a little out there.” Am I just a little? I’d say I’m more than a “little” out there. I’m really out there. That comment was said to hurt me, maybe to shut me down, it did the opposite.
My confidence boosted when I saw that message. Why wouldn’t I want to be out there? Why wouldn’t I want to stand my ground? Why wouldn’t I want to be noticed?
I’ve always been the girl that followed my heart. Don’t get me wrong, sometimes I’ve had trouble doing so because my brain isn’t so sure it’s right, but I’ve always ended up where I needed to be.
By following my heart, I’ve always been “out there.” Some people might take that the wrong way, I don’t search for negative attention, but I stand up for myself and what I believe in, and sometimes it draws the wrong attention.
I’m always going to be “that” girl that everyone has something to say about. I’m not the typical teenage girl. I do wild things and I’ve learned from many of those events.
I’m not typical because I don’t allow anyone to tell me I can’t do something. I’m anywhere from not picking at my food to jumping into a raging concert to crowd surf. It’s who I am and who I will always be.
So when you tell me I’m “a little out there” I’m going to smile at you and I’m going to fall asleep at night thanking God that he made me so different from everyone else. If following my heart, and not fitting in with the crowd is “out there,” then I’m so thankful to be “that” girl.
A Road We Have Not Chosen 